According to reports, Rihanna and Chris briefly reunited after the February 2009 drama, an action she says she can’t believe she did.

“It was a situation I always told myself I would never allow myself to be in. It’s something I would force girlfriends to get out of. But there I was, sitting in it,” she said. “I witnessed physical abuse happening to my mom and I always said I would never let that happen to me, and then it was happening to me.

“Now, when I look back at it, it just bugs me out that I couldn’t see it for what it was,” the Bajan native added.

“Before that, I was just a little girl from the island, singing pop music,” she said. “It was easy to think I was shallow I had everything. It seemed like I had no problems in the world…And all of a sudden, boom! Everybody realizes I do have problems. I have too much pride. I would rather put on a face.”

“I would never let anyone see me cry. And I’m not like, ‘Please cry for me, I’ve been in a bad relationship.’ I hate that you know that and I don’t want you to remember me for that,” Rihanna stated.

Rihanna is currently dating Major League Baseball outfielder for the Los Angeles Dodgers, Matt Kemp, “and clearly I’m in a happier place,” she assured.